When you have done your very best to do your best
They try and try I just want to succeed
sometimes I realize I'll never succeed so I give up and cry
It is the saddest thing in the world

When I am unhappy I cry but I can never find the tears
How could we be so betrayed?  The heart cries
The Heart cries with all that it has

I prayed for you, I covered my head
When being a woman isn't enough for a man
Then you feel hopeless you know you are pretty
but they will never see that you are pretty

When I think I cannot go on I pray with all my heart
They say "Life has Changed" but why has it changed?
I wrote a sad song and nobody cried
I wrote a million sad songs and nobody cares
and the crazy thing is, I don't think anyone ever will

Sometimes being strong is just enough to keep from crying
When you are unutterably human and find yourself alone
There is no help for it, there is no justifying it
There seems no hope for those who are lost
Maybe The Crazy thing is, they say they never get found

I feel lost and I look for myself but I never find my way back
Sometimes I feel happy just to be myself within myself
Sometimes I struggle for an escape but I find no escape
I Think "I'm Dying" and so it seems that I am

Alone and stranded after all these years
Why keep a happy home if there is noone to love you
this is why i feel deeply betrayed by God
because simple because noone loves me
and noone probably ever will, again

It makes me smile to think about my imminent death
The Irony of it is an insult to my very dignity
If I were any Prouder than this I would just cry
just cry and cry but I am too proud to even cry
I feel so very hopeless and sad



They Say "Each of Us Is Who We Are,"
But I really don't think it is so.
I think we are each just a long chain of choices
we go through life doing our best the best we can
we feel deeply lonely especially when not alone
I think we each die and our memory is wiped away
in more ways than one, in our existence and in memories
we die and we are forgotten that is why I promised myself
that I would never let myself become forgotten
I refuse to live my heart and let it be wiped away
I am not a memory.  If I die, there is nothing left at all
Sometimes I think Remembering Others Is The Kindest Thing
Sometimes the world seems so damned dim
sometimes I feel blind but somehow I can see
Sometimes the barrier of love ispushed apart by Many Oceans
Sometimes death just seems imminent
Sometimes one is afraid not of living but of dying
there is nothing so terrifying as dying
i die every night again and again but find no ending
even within my dreams it seems there will be no heaven
I simply refuse to believe there is nothing when we die
I simply refuse I just Pray I Pray all night and every day
I hope so
I Hope There Is Life After Death
I don't want to die
I don't think anybody does
Pain is the ultimate reality
When I am dying I fall to my knees
The Answer must surely come!
In Jesus' Name,
Amen!