"Pain and Love"
Some Days I feel as though life will surely go on, day after day
as though there were no force that could stop life from going on
My faith in God leads me to trust in the Great Design, in being meant to be
If I am alive, I am meant to be alive, and I will never die
Someday I may, but I had no idea I would ever be this sick
It were almost as though I were prevented from being alive
I struggle to breathe while you are away, and when you are with me
I cannot leave this wretched earth because you are holding me in your arms
I hold you in my own arms and when You push me away my heart cries out
it is worse to be beaten than to be pushed away I think, if only you can hold me
softly in your arms, then everything will be okay then I can stay alive
I look at you and sense your pain the pain in you is dense and deep
I had never known how much I loved you until now, I have always loved you
When you push me away I die a little, I wait for time to pass, something in my heart
knows I will be reunited with you once again if I keep praying to God
Time Has shown us that by prayer and faith anyone can get to where they need to go
Your pain has rediced you into an abstract silence you are so calm trying not to scream
I will not let you fall apart, you are my child, I would die for you in the street
I love you madly, surely this madness is more than my love for you
surely I love you more than I love being alive, surely holding you is my cure
surely I can do absolutely anything for you and if you want to cure me, kiss me
your Kiss would abate these mountains of pain and interceded this vast delerium
Your Kiss would soothe my soul and I could die at peace, a wealthy heart
If I am dying it is because you will not kiss me I swear I could revive
Your pain is like a whirlwind I cannot stop it from spinning
desperately and fearfully careening out over time and space
my love for you will never die!
In Jesus' Name,
Amen