"Sea Boat"
You Hold Me Back At Arm's Length
I lay still, anticipating your next move, watching silently
The moments pass into hours, I wonder why you no longer seem to care
Why, when it is cold outside, you do not want to hold me In your arms
I Feel Like Crying and you are so quiet, I wonder how to save this life
I think, that if I wait here for you to come home every day, you will get better
the thought of a life, a world, without you in it, is utterly unbearable
i would rather die than be without you, and I die when you push me away
every day I wake up, and I hold on to sweet life, I cherish simply being alive
breathing In and Out, watching the Sun Glance across the walls,  I feel Joy
In little suspended moments of grace, and the knowing that you are coming home
my heart jumps with happiness at your hand on the doorknob, when you come inside
I somehow find the strength to go on, you keep me alive with your care for me
I still do not believe in death, I don't think I ever will, I cannot understand dying
I hold on while the voices course through my imagination, and let them pour forth
like fast moving water, I breathe softly, waiting for you to come home
you are as sick as me, sick in your heart, my heaven is to hold you, i dream of you
then I wake up, and listen to the silence of a room cruising through space and time
like a ship at sea, never reaching the port, just cruising on and on , through the deep sea
parting the ocean in its wake!
In Jesus' Name,
Amen